Student life - here I come!

I haven't written for a while simply because I have been so busy. So where do I start??

We went to Bournemouth last week and came back on Wednesday. It was fab and has clearly done us all the world of good. I love the sea and dream that one day I may live on the coast, it is so peaceful and relaxing...

Isabelle really enjoyed herself. She kept saying `on holiday mummy' and `i like it' and generally running around all excited. I think her favourite part was the swimming pool in the hotel as all she said from the minute she got up in the morning was `swimming pool mummy??'.

Anyway, we got back on Wednesday and I prepared for my Interview on Thursday. I arrived at QMC on thursday at 10am and didnt leave until 16.30! Yes, I was the last to be interviewed... Anyway, the news is that I am in!!! I have been accepted subject to CRB check and proof of GCSE results to start Jan 2009! I am so excited it just cant come quick enough!

My worries though are firstly, the financial side of it - taking a 20k pay cut! Secondly the hours on placement, how am I going to work it ll round Isabelle? And thirdly, I m still not there yet with the anxiety and was dizzy all day at the interview, could really do with getting much better before january!

With work at the moment, I go back full time next week. I need the money but am really very upset about not spending wednesdays with Isabelle anymore :( . Weekends are always full of housework and entertaining family, wednesday was our only day to just do stuff together! Perhaps I will have to start doing the housework at night??

So thats about it for now. Hopefully I will be able to find some more time now to update my blog more regularly.

Videonation Clip

Wanted to post the link to my videonation film to look back on if times ever get me down again, remind myself how well I am doing...


http://www.bbc.co.uk/videonation/articles/u/uk_headpostnatal.shtml

Had a good few days with the weather being nice and the `Mile for PNI' walk went well. Weather was beautiful, company was good and Isabelle got to feed the ducks!

David and I have had a tough few days, basically I am a shit wife and not really doing the things that I shouls. But at least we have talked and that has helped. We also have been looking through the info that the mental health worker gave me about making relationshops better and I think that may have opened a few doors.

I hate being a crap wife, and I feel terrible that I am so bad at showing affection, which I know is David's main bug bear, but I will try harder. I love David very much, I just have never been one to be affectionate and am gonna have to learn fast how to do it!

Isabelle is good, she seems to enjoy being out in the sunshine, though often asks to come back in to watch charlie and lola! Ony a week on Saturday till our holiday to Bournemouth! Yipee! And a week tomorrow is Isabelle's Birthday - I am more excited than she is!! LOL. And on top of that I have my interview with the University 2 weeks on Thursday - gulp.

Been really busy this month - got all the above going on and on top of that went to see Colin Fry (very good) last thursday, out for a meal and a nightclub with colleagues last Sat, off to a concert with David on Thursday, then Isabelles B'day, then holiday, then interview, then out on the Sat 24th with the girls, and then out with work colleagues on 28th... My god no wonder I am poor!! Good news that I am doing all this though! Bearing in mind that last year I could barely make it to the co-op!

Right better go give David some attention...

Poorly Mouth!

Two weeks on thursday will be my interview. I am so frightened that they will turn me down, and still stressing about the money. But the other half of me is so excited that I might actually get a shot at doing this!

Work has been crap this week. Though I did get quite pleasure today in seeing how many haz labels I could stick to one of my colleagues' backs without hum noticing! Got to 6 before some muppet said `why you got all those stickers on your back?...'.

Going to try and have a nice evening with David tonight and give him some attention. He is very unhappy at the moment and I know my time on the forum is a major reason so will have to stay clear tonight!

Wentt to see Colin Fry last night - he is ace! After seeing Derek Acorah last year (he was crap) thought it may be the same with Colin but he was very good and I had a fab night! Off out tomorrow night to a local restaurant with a load of work colleagues for someones leaving do and quite looking forward to it - if I can eat by then! Wont be much fun if I can't tuck in to all those lovely dishes...

No wonder I am stressed about money - with the social life I am having at the moment it should be no surprise I am skint! Guess I am making up for all those months I was housebound with the anxiety!

Well as Isabelle is jumping all over the laptop keys i will cut it short.