Long Time...

I have been seriously neglecting my blog! All this work, being a mum, working on the forum, keeping ahouse etc just takes up too much time!!

David had offered to pay for a years membership for a new gym that is opening across the road from us soon. Looks beautiful with gorgeous pool, spa etc.. Im very excited, but also wondering how i am gonna manage 3 times a week there... lol x

Still excited about starting my course in Jan! But stressed about cash. I am seriously overdrawn earning 26k a year so god knows how I will mange on 6k! But where there is a will there is a way..

Work is driving me nuts. I am starting to seriously dislike many of my colleagues and cant wait to get away from them. I have spent all these years working only with men and starting now to realise how bloody annoying and ignorant they are. I dont have to put up with the torrent of abuse that I do, and gonna start to make a stand!

Fuel prices are freaking me out too! Desperate to keep my car but dont see how I am going to be able to! Might have to get something small and crappy for a bit :(

Trying to sort out my drinking problem too. A bottle of wine every night really is not helping my weight! Its all right watching what I eat but that is clearly not the problem. Quite concerened that I may have a real problem with the booze.

Still getting out and about quite a lot. Been to loads of gigs and got a few more coming up, uts all money again though isnt it?! It is important for me to do these things too, I think it helps my anxiety to remember how I was before being a mum.

Talking of being a mum, Isabelle is still delightful! She has her moments the same as all toddlers, but I love her to bits and we generally have a great time together! Things ith David are ok, but I still have this fear of sex. Its bloody ridiculous and I am frightened it will one day end out marriage. The poor guy thinks its him, its hard to explain that that is not the case ans there is just something wierd going on with me. I really need psychoanalysing!

Hmmm, I smell poo... time for LO's nappy change I think!!