My Husband and I

Well i think right now would be a very good time for me to write about things with David.

We have been married for 7 weeks now, though together for 7 years, and i could never love another man more than i love David. He is so kind and caring and really looks after me, and i have loved him from day 1 I think!

Since this whole PNI thing kicked off some strange things have happened to me. I dont know why or what has caused them but they have been very distressing. I cant have sex, or be touched in a sexy way. I am happy to touch David in that way when i am in control but i cannot be touche back and i just dont know why. My mental health worker is supposed to be sorting me out with some sort of phsyco-sexual counselling, bit i am still waiting.

If this isnt enough of a problem for our relationship in itself, it is compounded by the fact that i have not been so close to David in other ways. And it has taken me until tonight to realise why. I really enjoy spending time with David, talking, cuddling and having a laugh, but i feel like anytime i go near him he immediately starts touching me or making rude comments. I know he is just being funny and not serious with me, but it is putting me on edge, and so i have found that sub-conciously i have been backing away for this reason.

I dont know how to handle this. This is the man i want to be with forever and i am such a freak I am driving a massive wedge between us as I can se that he is starting to get really frustrated with me (understandably). I wish I knew the answers..